![]() “Just because we want it doesn’t mean we should do it. I could feel it in the way you kissed me.” “Why not? You saying you don’t want to? ’Cause if you say that you’re lying.” Mav looked challengingly into his best friend’s eyes. “Wait a minute!” Duke broke away suddenly. Mav wanted to drink him from the lips down, to explore every inch of him, to stake a claim that would never fade. Duke’s mouth under his was just like he remembered it. Opening his mouth, he invited Mav inside and Mav wasn’t hesitant at all in taking him up on the invitation. Melting against Mav, he began to give as good as he was getting. He only knew that it felt right and he wasn’t about to stop doing it until he had his fill.ĭuke fought the kiss for a moment and then seemed to change his mind. God, what am I doing? Should I be doing this? He didn’t know. Grabbing Duke, he pulled him into a tight embrace and pressed his lips against his friend’s. He’d thought enough and now he was ready to act. Suddenly Mav’s body went into action independently of his brain. “Well?” Duke was looking at him with a mixture of exasperation and annoyance and Mav realized he’d been standing there silent for the past few seconds, just thinking. But how could he tell Duke that? After what he’d put Duke through would he believe it? Does that make me gay or what? Mav didn’t know, but he did know he didn’t want to risk losing the most important person in his life over a label. So what am I? The answer came back almost immediately. Was he really willing to go through that pain again, not only for a week but for the rest of his life, just because he didn’t want to admit what he was? The last week without Duke had been painful-heartbreaking. ![]() Seeing Duke now, in the familiar surroundings of their apartment, brought home to him exactly how much he’d missed his best friend. Convince him to stay, that same little voice that had urged him to get Duke to come back to the apartment with him whispered in his brain. He’d lied to get Duke back here but for what purpose? What was the point? Had he thought that once he got his old friend back on familiar ground Duke would magically forgive him and agree to go back to the way things were before? What was wrong with him? What was he supposed to do? ![]() Mav hadn’t had any idea what he was going to do once he got his old roommate back to the apartment and he was still drawing a blank. Now show me what I forgot.” Duke stood in the mostly bare living room and turned in a circle, as though looking for his missing possessions. “Come on, let’s get out of here.” He was halfway afraid that Duke would change his mind but to his relief, his friend shrugged and followed him out the door. “Well, he’s a cryptic guy, isn’t he?” he muttered to Duke. “Remember what I told you,” he said and then left the room before Mav could say anything in reply. “Tell Ethan I’ll see him later, okay?”Įvan nodded. If it’s only for a minute…” He looked at Evan. He wasn’t quite sure what he was going to do once he got Duke back to their apartment, he just knew that it was important to get him there.Īt last, to his relief, Duke nodded. It’ll only take a minute.” Inside he was as tense as a knotted fist. “No, you missed some stuff and I don’t want to just leave it lying around when I go. “Look, Mav, I’m pretty sure I got everything important when I left so if you could just-” I need you to come get it so I can finish packing.”ĭuke sighed and turned around. “You, uh, you left some of your stuff at our place. “I, uh, wait,” he said, feeling like an idiot. Find some excuse to get him out of here and back to the apartment. Could Duke really walk away just like that, so easily? I hope you have a great time in Tallahassee.” He turned and started to walk away and Mav felt his heart sink. I just…I couldn’t leave without saying goodbye.”ĭuke looked down. “I came over here to see you one last time. It was like he’d been in withdrawal and suddenly he’d gotten a hit of what he needed most in the world. After an entire week of not seeing Duke he felt starved for the other man’s company. “No, don’t apologize.” Mav took a step closer, feeling like he was being pulled by a magnet. “Still in love with me?”ĭuke frowned unhappily. ![]() “Are you still?” Mav stood and walked around the couch to be closer to his friend. “But, Mav, by that time we were already roommates and I was…well, I was already in love with you.” “If it was just telling you I was gay, I woulda done it.” Duke looked at him earnestly. “You think I would’ve stopped being your friend if you came out?” ![]()
0 Comments
Leave a Reply. |
AuthorWrite something about yourself. No need to be fancy, just an overview. ArchivesCategories |